thats me`

2012

2012-01-11T12:46:00.002+08:00

its been almost 4 months since i ventured the sky.

had both the good and bad times.

the hardest was for me to leave home for work.

sometimes i feel like a free child roaming the world

yet

sometimes i feel so lonely out in a foreign land.

i miss my lifestyle.

i miss my family friends and frankie.

as i grow up,

i need to face the fact that i need the money.

for every purpose in life.

i dont know what other jobs can offer in future.

right now,

im just stuck here.

broken hearted.

2011-12-01T03:24:00.002+08:00

they say flying takes more time away from you.

i beg to defer.

you are much more busier than me.

i dont see you even on my offdays.

dont turn the table round by saying youre free when im away.

then why arent you making use of the days im away to finish your stuffs so

we can meet up.

and not meet up to accompany you go here there.

but own time.

our own time.

when was the last time we went out together

without constant ringing/msging from your fellow friends

rushing you to go back office etc.

why do we even have the curfew from your friends.

this is bullshit.

till now

you still dont get it, dont you?

say im unreasonable, not understanding?

give me one solid reason why i should?

dont bullshit with me that because its part of loving you should be.

im not selfish to steal your dreams away from you

but you just cant handle both, let alone ns is coming next month.

oh great.

relationship is no longer just love.

it needs commitment.

where is yours?

-

2011-11-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

WOOOHOOOO~

how many ages since ive been here =))

nothing much from me.

bye~

obsessed

2011-07-24T23:33:00.005+08:00

POWERSHOT S95 im in love with you! because of your poster effect.

it hooked me up.

i will save money and get you!

=DD

sapphire looks nice.

and the picture below.

( supposed to be blue instead of purple)

actually all brown also nice.

hmmm.

anway,

i want you too =D

and hopeully its approved at work.

IM IN LOVE WITH FOSSIL!

=D
FOSSIL watch (see more stainless steel jewelry)

fossil backpack too

-.-

i foresee myself spending lots of money already.

FOSSIL backpack (see more canvas bags)

OKAY IM TIRED!

GOODNIGHT!

=)

2011-04-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

HELLO EARTH

HELLO WORLD

im looking forward to handing in my LETTER!

end of may, im free from working life.

wahahaha.

yes you may think im crazy

because that would means im jobless and penniless.

its okay =)

i will be happier.

anyway in june.

yes.

im flying to the other side of the world.

im looking so forward!

im gonna take the plane alone for 24hours.

god, noone to talk to.

im gonna be so lonely.

andand

i dont even know if i can adjust my body clock backwards.

i dont know how it feels to be jet lag.

BUT IM HAPPY!

=DD

will be meeting martin and kevin there.

awesome!

den head on to the other side of state ( west coast)

to meet my both sisters for land tour.

awesome.

almost one month not in sg.

weeeeeeeeeeeee~

okay.

been on healthy diet for the past three weeks.

till i fell sick.

how irony.

and im still popping out pimples.

lol.

so my hope of being called back is actually 1%

okay

goodnight world!

loves

2011-03-27T04:05:00.001+08:00

i guess the main thing i enjoyed most in bali was because you were there with me.

i dont know what i'll do without you in my life.

i cant imagine

and i hope for us to stay this way.

always.

goodnight world;

loves joyce'

exploded.

2011-03-12T01:04:00.003+08:00

hello world.

guess its one of the few places i get to write about stuffs.

its really irritating.

i dont expect you to understand me.

i never even ask for it.

all these while.

i only have one MAJOR need and wants.

that is to TRAVEL.

but i dont get it as why

people are telling me

my ambition so big.

waste money.

stupid to travel back to the freaking same few island over over again.

waste my dad's money.

waste time?!

fyi.

i freakingly worked as hard as i spent on my money on every single island i visited since 17years old.

fcuk.

i never asked dad for a single cents.

i dont need to shop.

i dont need branded stuffs like lv gucci wadever.

everyone has different needs/dreams.

why cant they just accept the fact I SIMPLY LOVE TO GET OUT OF SG?!

you cant bring money to coffin.

you dont know when life will end for you.

im just doing what i want and love to.

my goal in life to be a housewife so

i just cant travel is it?

nonsence.

and if you think going back to the same place is silly.

should just save all the islands trip and go for further countries.

you assumed i didnt think of that?

i will doubly hard to get that money to go there.

but who would go with me?

you tell me?

who would go on an europe/africa/america trip with me?

so much for helping me.

fyi again,

i gained different experiences and memories every time i come back from places.

and a happier person.

no, thank you for your concern

but you just dont make me feel better or happier

when im stuck working because i need the pathetic salary to travel.

and fear not,

i do give my parents their " monthly salary" from my salary

and its much higher than others that i know of.

and yes

i still have that freaking small amount to go on a short relaxing trip.

and no

i have not found a right travelling partner yet.

im just too hard to accommodate at times.

please.

do not ask me to lower my needs/wants.

i would rather find ways to

earn much more than now to satisfy myself.

becasue i only have one simple pathetic dream.

that is to travel.

goodnight world

;i know i can be sucha bitch.

you dont expect me to be always nice when you kept slamming on me yea?

yupp.

2011-02-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

some things are better left un-type.

its just my personality to not make
things awkward between people and me.

thats why i dont argue or confront people in the face.
even though i really get so irritated with things.

its just my way of handling.
you can say im fake or wad.
im just nice and you cant accept that im nice.
=)

goodnight world;

.

2011-01-28T01:30:00.004+08:00

please let me fly.

let me get away sg.

i dont like here.

i must have been shutting on myself too much lately.

irritated disappointed complaining almost every thing.

im sorry for my moodswing.

i still love you.

hopeyourenotaffectedbyme.

thank you for believing in me way back then.

without you girls.

i wouldn have start learning to trust and have friends.

after all these years,

i finally understand what is true.

bye world;

please be positive and strong.

.

2011-01-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

its coming to end of jan 2011.

schedule still as shitty as ever.

feb hurry come.

march hurry come.

hurry hurry!

i have so many in mind.

again

neglected;

over again.

YEAR20111

2011-01-05T13:46:00.003+08:00

HAPPPYY NEW YEAR!!

i know im alittle late but we are in year 2011.

weee~

=))))

oftenly i have many thoughts in mind that i want to pen it down.

but once my fingers touches the board, i forget everything that i want to say.

so once awhile i quickly jot down in pointform on any piece of paper i can find.

tada~

im determined that i dont want to live this year the same way as year2010.

i was and am still lazy but i need to move on!

yes joyelyn wants to move on.

eevryone says that

but i am trying.

retail job was alright.

once youve picked it up, everything seems easy

excet for the fact they kept on adding promotional stuffs which complicates procedure.

and i got bored of the routine of

either cashiering or stocker.

having to deal with difficult customer is a pain in the ass

but it kinds of mould my way of handling them.

they expects solution to be given apart from sorry.

some were really unreasonable that i really felt like punching them yet i cant.

i can only complain afterwards.

i got scolded

i got complimentated

but

i realised

ANYONE can do retail line.

even a drop-out school leavers works with me.

not that im pushing them down

but its freaking true.

no wonder my relatives gave me the

"huh" look upon knowing i worked as a retail associate.

i used to defend myself saying its not bad okay

at least i get paid higher than fnb supervisors.

maybe when im in my 30s and go bred of being a housewife

i can go back to retail

cause thats how some of people i know are doing that.

as time pass,

the need to find what i truely love and wants sets in.

i love travelling.

its like my biggest dream.

i want to travel to many places and stay there for a period of time.

taste their culture

adapt their lifestyles

work there and earn alittle for myself.

i want the experience.

i feel free when im out of singapore.

i feel happier.

i need a job that allows me to travel the world.

but what jobs are available for me?

cabin crew.

yes i loved to be one but i hate flying

because i hate turbulance

and how documentaries of plance crashes still haunts in me.

frank always told me "have faith in the plane"

yes yes

i always have faith in the plane but once the plane gets rocking up and down,

my failth slowly disappears while my fear steps in.

i know i should try

challenge myself.

yes maybe i will =))

what other jobs?

travel consultant?

travel guide?

business job?

suddenly i want to study again

it seems like the only path

but

I NEVER LIKE STUDYING.

not everyone likes

yet

i know very well how important a degree will be useful in future.

but i dont wanna waste my dad money if i really dont used it.

however my friend told me

its better for my ownself

because i never know what will happen in the future

and that i may have to support myself with the cert

if i were to study,

im taking the degree in hospitality and tourism.

my mum doesnt really wants me to study in sg private sch

and australia schools are EXPENSIVE

my family arent rich

and i still have two more younger sisters education that my dad has to pay for.

its not easy.

i need an answer.

quick.

i have planned to go overseas this year.

either europe or america

be it solo or with friends or family

thats one of my goal this year!

anyway

HOPE EEVRYONE KNOWS WHAT THEY WANT AND GO ON

FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE!

FOR YOUR DREAMS!

FOR YOUR GOAL!

=DDD

and i will too.

(am happy for MITC to be sponsering for justedeboutsingapore

way to go frank!)

loveyouall;

joycelyn`

help me.

2010-12-24T05:06:00.002+08:00

im just weird in my way.
they say its wasteful of me to always go on short trip
simply cause i wanna run away from sg for awhile
i know its short term
but it makes me happier.
i know im happier everytime i getaway from sg.
i feel happier.
everyone has different views.
i understand your point.
i do =)
and
i really want to travel to further countries
but does anyone has the time?
does anyone have the $?
do i even have the time off for myself?
can i get 2 weeks break?
no i cant.
and fml.
.
everyone has their dream job or goals,
wad bout me?
i keep changing
because i keep thinking im no good in this that that this.

i wanna be a pet groomer.
then im afraid.

i wanna be a baby sitter
then im afraid

i wanna be a cabin crew
then im afraid

i wanna be a singer
i cant make it

i wanna be a dancer
im so f lazy

i wanna not work
but no income

i wanna study
but i dont know if its the right choice
or just wanna follow wadever others are doing

im not rich
my family arent rich either
if not i can just sit on my sofa and shake legs

im just waiting for things to happen
like it will happen to me
i can wait long long
sicne ive been waiting forever.

do something with myself!
ahhhhh damnit.

.

2010-12-09T01:12:00.001+08:00

i dont want to work.
its not my interest.
i have not yet found my interest.
and i just yuck at every single job that passed my mind.
.

sharing!

2010-11-28T23:01:00.011+08:00

hello world!

i spent the entire day at home lazing around.

glued my butt onto sofa while eyes onto screen

watched bones/criminal minds/csi.

god,

i love these dramas =)

and i love the show

lie to me.

tim roth so charming old guy

hahahah

have been putting on alot of makeup

since working in aug.

been sticking to my most loyal twoway foundation- Za

blusher from inuori.

red earth 4-way concealer.

i guess im too lazy to change or look for other makeup brands.

but makeup remover,

i have been searching high and low

because i haven found the right one.

i tried faceshop to skinfood to bodyshop to weird stuffs.

until my last trip to jb,

a very nice salesperson introduced me to this jap brand that calls

" cleansing express "

clear-water based.

( my favourite <3>

there are four different types.

for the oily skin

for the combination of both oily and dry

for the ageing skin

and lastly for the dull-skin.

andand what i love most is that

it only takes the most 3 cotton pad to use on your face.

awesome

and i dont need to wash my face afterwards because

it is called cleansing express

hahaha

just lame-ing around.

what i meant was

after rinsing with tap water,

the touch of your face

is delicate like baby's skin.

so smooth!

and its quite affordable!

i bought it in jb watsons about $12 for 300ml bottle.

in sg watsons, it cost about $16.90 and

they are giving away smaller bottles inside the packaging.

weeeeeee!

ohh and i also like the brand

SIMPLE!

the eye makeup remover

which i used to wipe the entire makeup for my face before i found the new one.

its water-based too.

woohoo~

i feel like im advertising

but who cares!

great things should be shared around!

* pictures are some of the cleansing expresss.

and there is my new dog!

his name is latte.

hehee

because of the white and brown patch on his body

reminds me of cappucino/coffee

but the name is too long for the dog

so we decided to call him latte

he is 6years old.

jack russell breed.

i love his sharp nose!

nicer than frank's

hahahhaha

and he is super good!

he doesnt pee or shit anywhere in the house

and he goes to toilet to shit/pee or out of house

super intelligent dog!

christmas is coming!!

i sensed that im working that day.

gahhhh.

as usual

there goes my offday which hardly comes by on a sunday for me.

goodnight world.

loves`

=)

2010-11-12T07:14:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME =D

didnt sleep the entire night.

stayed up.

watched sunrise.

feeling tired now.

nothing special bout this year.

boyfriend busy with presentation.

im left alone at home.

i dont know what to do.

nothing in mind.

things ive wanted to do; cant be done as well.

hmmm

save for after my day =)))

us against the world.

2010-10-24T01:08:00.003+08:00

i wish i have better fashion sense.

i want to but i guess im lazy to find.

lazy to keep up with the trend.

i can only stand and admire what they wear

whats the trend etc etc.

though i feel comfortable with what i wear at tiems.

haahahha.

sometimes

i just want to dress up

but.

it doesnt work out.

lol.

slowly improving

=))

am i losing my friends?

yes?

2010-10-22T01:09:00.001+08:00

i often regret what ive just said.

i wished i could take it back

but i cant.

Zzz.

never think before i speak.

and i find myself irritating.

silly me.

i miss missing you.

2010-09-21T22:51:00.003+08:00

things have changed alot.

pretty much.

i am still me.

just working her life off.

i dont really click as well with my colleagues

compared to dancemates.

and yes i do miss my bunch of own friends.

sometimes i wonder if they still regard me as their friend.

hmmm

im sure they did =)

hahahaa.

stop thinking.

and get back to sleep.

work starts again tmr.

i wished offdays are much longer than working days.

.

2010-09-07T22:18:00.003+08:00

hell yeah
i wish i can make ppl disappear just like that.
ppl who irritates me
big time.
it has always been contradicting
when seniors kept telling you to ask when you dont know.
and when you've really asked,
they'l throw up a big fuss and firmly replied you ought to know.
-.-
whats the point of saying?
i guess they just want to make the environment feels lighter.
.
and seriously
its my first cashiering.
noone is there to guide me.
the leader is like fcuk herself.
dont even know what she's doing -.-
.
they're like waiting for the moment when i make mistake
so they can fcuk my mood.
mean little tiny bitches.
.
to cover all the bad stuffs.
i feel happier when customer smiles back at me.
when they tell me ive been of a great help to them.
this that.
=)
.
how long can i last in my job?

BINTAN GETAWAY!

2010-07-28T23:54:00.004+08:00

just back from nirwana resort garden.

wonderful scenery, we got the seaview delux room =)

sea is clear.

swimming pool has infinite pool.

breakfast was so good, i craved for more.

western for lunch by the beach.

sweet~

room service for dinner. triple deck sandwich with fries! SHIOK!

river by spa- relaxing and aromatic.

row your own sampan in mangrove area.

trikora beach even blue-er.

staffs were all friendly and smiley!

dinner at kelong was cheap and super full..

late night drink at calypso hut out at the sea, with carribean music felt better!

i dont wish to come back.

time pass so slow there.

you let loose your muscles and relax.

i dont like this rush-life.

im starting work next week.

thank god i'd enjoyed my short getaway.

and thank you takemetoasia agency for such splendid short trip.

i booked it only 2 days before =D

and its cheap.

225nett for

2-way ferry transport cum tax cum fuel.

2 day breakfast.

delux with seaview room.

land transport.

welcome drink and dance.

NEEDLESS TO SAY MORE, I REALLY LOVED IT =D

especially the part where

we dont see the price before we buy or order stuffs.

we just do what we want.

we buy what we want.

we eat what we want.

NO RESTRICTION.

ABSOULTELY BEST SHORT BEACH GETAWAY!

of course, without my partner of those days

charissa =))

i wouldnt have enjoyed this trip.

i have changed.

2010-07-24T23:13:00.003+08:00

hello my blog.

it used to be so active but its dead becasue im dead.

nah

just kidding.

hahhaa

okay; cold.

i finally snapped on someone.

a stranger.

someone with authority.

someone who can ripped off my pay anytime.

someone who can complained and have my name off any future event job.

BUT I DONT CARE.

because he crossed the limits.

i wont stand still

letting him insult my friend and myself as a person.

i dont care if he's some big shot.

if he's someone important.

if he's super rich ass.

i dont care.

i kept quiet on the first day when he started throwing his weight around.

AND I KNOW

the shit always gets roll down from the top to bottom.

we may be your workers, working under you

but we are not your slaves!

i know very well to keep quiet, to listen

and i know just well to snap at you =)

i dont see a need that you kept yelling over the phone,

vulgarities on us.

thats not cool.

life's a bore if there's no exciting drama in it =)

i respect you by authority

but youre abusing your authority.

i didnt yell at you

i said nicely and properly

but too bad

youve crossed the line.

surprising for you that we little weak girls could defend ourselves.

hahahaha.

SURPRISE!

okay, i looked like a fool now.

but anyway.

yeaa.

i didnt think of the consequences or wadsoever.

but i just know.

you treat me nice

eventually

i will treat you nice

you insult me

i will insul you back =))

which makes me realise.

JOYCELYN HAS CHANGED.

yes

i've changed.

into someone meaner.

straighter.

its not a bad thing if i can protect myself from predators.

hahahaa.

however,

i wont lose the soft side of me.

to ppl whom i love and care about =)

i hope i can balance it well.

and.

im not joining osch recital this year.

ive given myself millions of excuses.

i couldn take leave for my work

becasue performance will be on weekends

and definitely i have to work on weekend.

i wont pass through any audition genre because i suck.

i love dance.

but its not my passion anymor.

its contradicting where

i used to tell others how much dance means to me.

i guess

ppl like me are just plain lazy.

once we've stopped,

we rested for ages

and the motive/engine to start moving my limps again

are tough.

when i watched past videos of me dancing with my friends and all.

i get this tiny voice telling me to just GO AND DANCE.

yet in my sub-consious mind,

its feeding me with EXCUSES.

and i know

im weak

because ive given in to excuses.

and this sucks

having to pour out my inner thoughts on my blog

knowing someone might be reading this.

joycelyn,

where has my motivation went to?

where are my guts?

do i even have the soul?

bye world.

peace and loves~

stuck

2010-07-03T12:51:00.002+08:00

i guess im at a crosspoint now.

i dont know what i want in my life.

some asked me to further study for degree.

some asked me to work.

hmmm

but i really dont know what i want.

i mean

i planned before

but

somehow i dont want that life anymore.

hahahaa.

why does retail pay so low?

they stand for long hours ( up to 11 hours a day )

they work up to 6 days a week.

no life

but the pay so little.

customer service as well

slightly higher but not very high.

ive calculated.

ahhh.

ive been comparing prices

because i really dont know what i want-.-

bank bank

but they need degree or dip in finance/acc

-.-

i only have accounting for olevel

lol

take up courses

also need money.

no work = no $$ = no level up courses

raahhhh

so confused

so irritated

bye world!

bad impression

2010-06-30T01:04:00.003+08:00

i think im dumb.

how do i find jobs?

like full-time jobs

like how ppl know?

errr.

like eg:

i want to be a travel assistant

( so i can travel with the group)

lol

where do i go and apply?

hmmm

i dont get it.

before interview etc

where do i even find those job vacants?

hmmmm.

anyway

i thought i found a job

went to mdis building.

my interview was at 11am.

reached 5mins before 11am.

called the office and the girl's hp

but noone answered.

until 1104am,

the girl msged me saying to meet her

at the lift lobby.

(in my mind was already having bad impression of the company)

waited waited

until 1120am,

she called me and said

"sorry, we have emergency meeting now

so noone can attend to you right now,

the interview has been pushed back to 12pm"

i said no i cant.

she asked if i could come back in the evening?

i said no again.

i know i sounded petty

but if they could make me wait

and have a meeting before i come into the picture

who knows they might come up another excuse again.

and i was not even waiting in the company office

i was at god-knows-where tat place was.

-.-

bad impression kills everything

even if i want a job so badly.

noooo.

-.-

Zzzzz.

hmmm

so yeaaa.

what do i want to do now?

hmmmm

my brain is mal-functioning.

hahahaha

bye world!

first failed interview of my life.

2010-06-26T16:10:00.002+08:00

ive failed the first round.

i've spoken too much.

first time i have to blame myself for speaking too much.

others reply were only a sentence or two sentence.

oh god.

i wish i could have reversed the time.

how can i not listen to the instructions carefully.

KEEP IT SHORT!

-.-

there goes my chance to be a cabin crew.

the next one,

i hope i will be prepared, not literally.

hahaa

bye world!

decisions decisions

2010-06-09T14:26:00.002+08:00

working is part of life.

maybe i dont understand yet

that making money is possible.

you have to endure the hardworks of years before you finally start to make money.

and i mean big money.

but im sorry that i dont see it

thats why i need to stop wad im doing

and look for another job

thats makes me happier.

at least i feel safe, for now.

its nice to have thoughts that

you can earn 5 grand per week by recruting people only.

but to me,

struggling to met the sales target is taking my breath away.

im ashamed to say

im useless.

i have to chose to given up on this path towards success

becasue i dont see it yet

i dont see myself as one of the successful ones.

perharps im just one of those "losers

you all have mentioned

finding jobs that has basic pay =)

at least i will feel much safer carrying a sum of money home after each month.

maybe few years later, i might come back to this job after not making enough money.

maybe.

ive made up my mind =)

im leaving

bye world!

=))))

felt a load of weight off my heart.

working is tough.

2010-05-24T00:09:00.002+08:00

working almost three weeks now.
ive learnt alot.
direct sales is not easy at all.
seeing different people.
strangers who will smile.
strangers who will wave vigoriously saying no no no.
strangers who will acknowledge and say no, thank you.
strangers who will lie bout jobless, bankrupty, many cards and laughed walking away.
strangers who will totally ignore you with their eyes not even looking at you.
strangers who throw temper at you.
strangers who vent their fustration or hatred at you.
strangers who have very jiao* faces and happens to just have jiao* attitude.
its amazing to see hundreds of faces past by me everyday.
to speak to hundreds of people daily.
its not easy getting my submission done
because yeaaa
everyone are always good at giving excuses.
this that.
its freee stuffss and they dont want.
faints.
perharps because i dont have basics and depends fully on commission.
getting as many submission = $$
no sub= no $
and that sucks knowing you need to be enthu about it.
because some strangers dont sympathy you.
some strangers simply laugh and walked away.
which makes me feel like punching them
but then again,
i cant have them complaining to my company bout me
so yeaaa
have to swallow.
so not worth it
especially when they dont give me submission.
Zzzz
i really dont know what i want.
hmmmm
how did i even survive this work.
lol
.
bye world.
bye freedom.
and come to me $$$

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2010-05-04T22:48:00.013+08:00

HELLO.

THIS IS JOYCELYN AND FRANKIE.

LOL

because of job interview etc, i had to forsake my nail polish...

this is booger =)))

he finally knows how to enjoy the wind out of the window.

lol

this is a restaurant at bugis junction.

frank brought me there.

sweeet.

the food was dope.

the ice lemon teeaa was HUGE.

hahhaaa.

they even have ice cream bufffet!

im gonna try that out someday =)))

and the price is reasonable.

affordable.

doesnt it makes your saliva droooling now?

lol

but i still kept my toe nail colour going =)))

nivea sales person for fhm event.

its free facial foam for guys

but people with really bad skin refused to take

yet aunties and really old uncle are asking for extras.

lol

my swollen gums makes my face slightly swollen.

my collection of nails polisihhh.

my mum and i wore similar pants but different shoes.

sushi buffet; we had 16plates of 6 piece salmon sashimi, 35plates of normal sushi, plates of different fried food and dessert etc. shiok =)

and weee had ICE SHAVED MANGO AND STRAWBERRY which cost 5bucks at traditional dessert at china town =)))

and yes

thats my wisdom tooth.

LOL.

2010-05-04T22:48:00.001+08:00

spent sunday at sentosa!

have always loved the sea sun trees clouds sands since young.

no doubt i had enjoyed myself.

cant deny that

revogue jumps-shot the best =D

hahaaa.

shirley temple-frank and my favourite mocktail.

at cafe del ...

hot babes and hunks ( models i guess )

green swimming pool.

ohh

thanks to great companions too.

frank

iris

sam

kat

chin

andreas

kaiwen

tim

nelson

badd

razmy

pangyang

junji

=))

sat late night.

with

frank kevin junji

sam and kevin's friendd.

girls watched orphan..

guys watched 3d-up..

hahahaaa!

i think we sat alittle too back.

disturbing but not bad =)

the guys loved their UP-UP movie.

hahaa

people including me

dont realise that

we always speak too fast.

next moment,

we are doing it ourselves.

my right gums are swollen

due to over-heaty/lack sleep/water/fruits etc.

i want to pluck off my wisdom tooth

but parents said its not neccessary.

im gonna live with it till im old.

i hate aches

okay bye world.

loves, joycelyn`

2010-05-04T22:47:00.003+08:00

our fourth year.

due to busy schdule.

i came up with last min card

during sip period.

i kept changing ideas as usual.

tried to squeeze in the 4 years of journey with pics and sentences.

but i couldn find last min old pic in my thumbdrive.

lol.

=))

but im glad he loves it

hahahahaa =DD

i am so excited about the upcoming trip

we are gonna plan

=)))

awesomeee

weeee!

tmr is performance.

heh

gonna take mc

=)))

bye world.

loves,joycelyn`

2010-05-04T22:47:00.001+08:00

mask on.

a stray cat walked into our house quietly.

frankie spotted her hiding in our study room.

thank goodness booger

didnt notice her.

we hid him in mum's room while we fed the cat.

it stayed outside of our house the entire night.

kevin frankie.

so pinkish. lol

booger!

strawberry and mango shaved ice.

delicious desserts!!

hahhahaaaa.

my new colour nails!

joyce joey chin.

i wanna see your back

your sexy back!

hahahahaaa!

ahleeleeee =))

jeaaannntannn =))

heh heh

boyfriend!

he made this for me.

yumyum!

=D

=)

bye world.

loves, joycelyn`

2010-05-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

our unplanned couple socks. heh

booger booger booger =)))

i failed my driving test.

and its auto.

i was just plain careless.

and too careful.

hope i pass next time.

heh

feeling so stopped right now.

i dont know.

im tired

bye world.

loves,joycelyn`

turkey post.

2010-05-04T22:46:00.001+08:00

turkey was total opposite

from what i have imagined before i touch there.

BA-tourguide from 5 stars was awesome!

he's definitely one of the best tourguide ive ever met.

always laughing

always making sure family stays together.

always telling jokes to keep us awake.

always entertaining us.

hello!

2010-04-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

something cropped up in the post.

lol.

supposed to have 15 postss.

anyway

I WANT TO WIN THE JETSTAR TRAVEL CHALLENGE TO TAIWAN WITH SAMANTHA LEE!

=)))))))))

the last time ive been to taiwan was 2002, when i was primary 6

and i want to re-live the whole experience again!

i am most willing to take video and pictures like nobody business

and upload into my blog

if we are chosen to win and go there!!!!!

i needa rush out of house now to video down!

blog more soon =))))

bye world!

showing more pictures

2010-04-30T22:27:00.007+08:00

what am i gonna do with my future.

2010-04-18T00:46:00.011+08:00

missing booger.

and feeling sorry for taxi.

hokkaido.

the only kind of ships in the world to slice through ice on the sea.

super duper cold in hokk.

family posing in turkey.

troy the horse.

he say the movie is crap.

hahahhaa

hot air balloon.

i love the wind and scenery

and the chocolate cake for breakfast.

mountains are common in turkey =)

cappadocia was great!

turkey weather was fantastic with the seagull at istanbul.

its a really slow long hot day in sri lanka

at sri lanka lookng at elephants

some cave in sri lanka which ive forgotten.

hahaha

sri lanka with family.

told you can be naked at patong beach

i see myself on tv.

at the top top of seoul's post office!

solar panel on the right.

can you spot me?!

korea dogs are huge.

i love food.

and im growing fatter!

im on the asia's longest bridge over the sea ( korea)

this dog fights with north korean tiger before!

i took the world most steepest wooden coaster! =)

korea shopping trippp.

phuket trip, patong beach.

our seaview room =)

awecome company =)))

plaited hairrr.

ice-cream.

you can be naked on the streets and noone caresss.

our pool!

let the pictures talk.

i really miss being overseas.

back from korea two weeks ago.

back from phuket last night.

my balance is almost half empty.

i needa start looking for jobs but

i am sooo . clueless

i dont know what i wanna do with my future.

nope, im not gonna study.

after that not so nice turbulance on the plane.

im afraid of being an air-stewardnesss.

i should stop wishing

and get back to fast-paced reality.

wisdom extraction this coming mon.

i will survive the painnn and numbness of my gums.

once ive start working,

i have to forgo my nail polish and loud hairdo.

i always feel alot lighter happier better when im overseas.

time passes slower in phuket than singapore.

korea was alright.

not using my phone for the entire trip was shiok

i do not have to think of anything.

really ANYTHING.

which perhaps why makes me feeel happier =))

and i need money to travel.

bye world.

goodnight!

loves, joycelyn`

turkey.

2010-01-01T09:50:00.003+08:00

turkey was total opposite

from what i have imagined before i touch there.

BA-tourguide from 5 stars was awesome!

he's definitely one of the best tourguide ive ever met.

always laughing

always making sure family stays together.

always telling jokes to keep us awake.

always entertaining us.

tells lots bout.

2009-10-28T15:35:00.008+08:00

caught booger sleeping sweetly on my softtoy.

our unplanned couple socks. heh

booger booger booger =)))

i failed my driving test.

and its auto.

i was just plain careless.

and too careful.

hope i pass next time.

heh

feeling so stopped right now.

i dont know.

im tired

bye world.

loves,joycelyn`

2009-10-07T20:51:00.005+08:00

mask on.

a stray cat walked into our house quietly.

frankie spotted her hiding in our study room.

thank goodness booger

didnt notice her.

we hid him in mum's room while we fed the cat.

it stayed outside of our house the entire night.

kevin frankie.

so pinkish. lol

booger!

strawberry and mango shaved ice.

delicious desserts!!

hahhahaaaa.

my new colour nails!

joyce joey chin.

i wanna see your back

your sexy back!

hahahahaaa!

ahleeleeee =))

jeaaannntannn =))

heh heh

boyfriend!

he made this for me.

yumyum!

=D

=)

bye world.

loves, joycelyn`

=D

2009-09-08T02:02:00.004+08:00

our fourth year.

due to busy schdule.

i came up with last min card

during sip period.

i kept changing ideas as usual.

tried to squeeze in the 4 years of journey with pics and sentences.

but i couldn find last min old pic in my thumbdrive.

lol.

=))

but im glad he loves it

hahahahaa =DD

i am so excited about the upcoming trip

we are gonna plan

=)))

awesomeee

weeee!

tmr is performance.

heh

gonna take mc

=)))

bye world.

loves,joycelyn`

.

2009-08-11T09:15:00.005+08:00

spent sunday at sentosa!

have always loved the sea sun trees clouds sands since young.

no doubt i had enjoyed myself.

cant deny that

revogue jumps-shot the best =D

hahaaa.

shirley temple-frank and my favourite mocktail.

at cafe del ...

hot babes and hunks ( models i guess )

green swimming pool.

ohh

thanks to great companions too.

frank

iris

sam

kat

chin

andreas

kaiwen

tim

nelson

badd

razmy

pangyang

junji

=))

sat late night.

with

frank kevin junji

sam and kevin's friendd.

girls watched orphan..

guys watched 3d-up..

hahahaaa!

i think we sat alittle too back.

disturbing but not bad =)

the guys loved their UP-UP movie.

hahaa

people including me

dont realise that

we always speak too fast.

next moment,

we are doing it ourselves.

my right gums are swollen

due to over-heaty/lack sleep/water/fruits etc.

i want to pluck off my wisdom tooth

but parents said its not neccessary.

im gonna live with it till im old.

i hate aches

okay bye world.

loves, joycelyn`

happy

2009-08-03T09:32:00.003+08:00

weekend
is something i look forward to
and keeps me going
through the weekdays
.
i need to re-colour my nails
.
soldering is tough.
short-circuit dozens times.
cant get a proper letter ready.
we are so gonna extend sip days
and this
totally sucks big time
.
i should have just got out of sch.
have some pay.
need not work my brain so much.
need not present nor extend.
i dont mind having to sacrifice my sleep-i-ness.
girls should have the same priorities as guys
to get out
.
dance
it seems
this period
is my suckiest duration.
couldn catch
anyone's choreo.
my brain shut off.
my muscles are lazy.
my mind is not positive.
my limps are uncontrollable.
.
driving
was fun.
frank said
woman have directional something something
problem.
if i were to reverse,
i had to think where to steer in order to turn left.
and i am so indecisive.
couldn make up my mind
whether to turn or not.
overtake or not
=/
i am not a safe/good driver
i should be better off sitting at the side
giving directions
hahaa
.
i know
i was at fault
but i didnt want to admit.
i didnt apologise.
why would i do that
when i love you?
why i couldn bring myself to say it.
why are words difficult to bring across at that point.
but everything's cool now =)
.
f.to,
thank you for your patience/understanding/giving in
all the time.
47months is nothing compared to spending my life-time with you =))
i wonder why you wont get sick of me [ but i dont want it to happen too ]
hahahahaaa
.
finally get to head to the beach ytd.
with the sun and breeze.
with the bench and trees.
with the sands and ships.
with the birds and FRANKIE.
watched the sun set / moon rise.
hahahaa.
decided to choreo for tonight's hh exam.
faints.
i hope i dont forget steps and not anticipate.
i hope ah
lol
.
APPENDIX D
where each of us comes from different places
meets one another
and start dancing together.
heh
.
gonna get back to work =)
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`

..

2009-07-31T14:09:00.002+08:00

nose and tummy
always giving me
problems.
.
is it better
to be occupied with many stuffs.
or
to be bored doing nothing?
.
bye world.
loves,
joyceyn`

.

2009-07-30T00:39:00.003+08:00

i doubt i know anything.
mis-leading.
dont under-estimate your surrounding.
.
just think alot.
and
answer the questions myself
in my thoughts.
sometimes,
its safer to keep it inside mind.
yet
sometimes
its best to release it.
whats stopping me.
i really dont know.
.
bye world.
off to bed.
loves,
joycelyn`

2009-07-24T14:18:00.003+08:00

clouds.

sauces =)

hehehe.

promoting orange juice! lol.

i had really bad cramp yesterday.

i bit my pillow/blanket.

i kicked my softtoy.

i punched my fist on bed.

i was in cold sweat.

i was scolding nonsence the whole time.

i couldn sleep

then i quickly ran to my bag

and grabbed my last two pink pills

and pop into mouth

and hurried back bed to sleep

after two/three hours of struggling

with the pain.

wad a afternoon.

the last time i had this really bad one

was months ago

at night.

my cycle started changing

after concert period.

it delayed and delayed.

and the pain got much more intense.

and yup.

the usual.

"got that bad not"

hey, you know

i dont mind

trading my body with you for that one cramp day

and lets see how you survive then.

anyway,

im still having slight one today.

Zzzz

my dad nagged me

for having cold drinks.

he meant good

but i cant stop drinking.

does it really works?

if i quit on cold-stuffs

and i wont have cramp anymore.

i just want it to disappear from me, my body, my life.

i hate cramps.

bye world.

joycelyn`

food

2009-07-21T16:50:00.003+08:00

when my period is late
or when its coming,
i tend to have many food cravings.
my groupmate always says
its the pregnant me period.
lol.
anyway,
i had craves for gelare waffles.
most of cities area has closed down
and replaced by some name called AC cafe.
-.-
went to ehub.
thank god!
its there.
sweet.
had
chocolate overload and cookies cream.
=D
finished 3/4
i crave for
fishballs.
went to old chang kee
and grab one stick.
den i had crave for
ban mian
chicken rice
pasta.
hahahaaa.
then we head to reservoir
to have ban mian ( mee hoon kuei )
yumyum!
bloated.
satisfied fully!
=D
.
choreo-ed finished.
alittle unsure of the last four count timing.
like
dum ta dum ...pause.... dum.
lol
.
catching harry potter movie
tonight with family except adeline/frankie.
=D
i haven read the book
so maybe i wont be so disappointed
hearing from friends' opinion.
heh
.
sun tan on sat with my love.
hehe.
relax
chill
talk bout anything under the sun clouds wind!
and one palm treee right in front of us.
hahahaaa.
white dog cafe is still my favourite.
salmon!
shirley temple!
=DD
and sweets chocs.
yumyum!
.
went out with sam ytd.
i was literally rotting in lab
and sam saved me.
LOL.
and we ate ate ate.
and talked at yogurt shop.
we shall go work part-time there.
eat healthy
shit healthy
dance healthy.
HAHAHAA.
.
and nono,
frank is still gonna have more projs
coming up ater this-.-
not good.
dont like.
eeeeeeeeeeeeee
be lenient, projs.
hahaaa
.
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`

smiley smiley

2009-07-16T17:22:00.002+08:00

im happy today.
=D
for no reason
hahahaaa.
time passed really quickly today.
and i didnt feel sleepy
nor fell asleep in lab
weeeeeweeee!
.
pet society=hard to play.
lol.
.
just downloaded a show called
"a walk to rmmbr"
i hope its nice
=D
heh heh
.
and my youngest sis, venetia
dl harrypotter&fire.
cause got robert pattinson inside.
hahahaaa.
.
andand.
i realise.
i can survive alone.
LOL.
lik.
i can eat alone.
i can watch movie alone.
i can shop alone.
i can travel alone.
i can walk around alone.
which many people
will find it odd weird funny uneasy.
=)
sometimes,
its really
quite comfortable and nice
being alone doing the "group" stuffs.
hahaa.
no harm trying it
=)))
really.
.
okay
im off to home!
=D
home dinner=yumyum!
den driving.
weeeee =D
.
bye world.
loves, joycelyn`

what to talk about

2009-07-14T09:51:00.005+08:00

on a normal nightride home from school.

movie with adeline and frankie to.

watched dance subaru.

breakfast for frankie's birthday.

that heart was there to cover the guy's face behind. lol

him showing his new bday shoes.

im also a girl.

and i dont see why i cant dress up just because you said it doesn suit me.

after finals =D

lol.

my com went mad.

with the font so huge.

sky.

clouds.sky.

found a similar paper card at genting.

hahaaa.

cool.

new nail polish from genting..

evidence of 85nail polish =D

hahaaa.

nike sb dunk.

i dont like not knowing your friends.

tell me all about it.

i want to know.

face it

accept it

forget it

we ( fragile humans)

should learn to be stronger.

once bitten,

twice not shy.

we cant help you anymore.

stop pretending we are still together

because

we arent since way back.

you dont need me.

dont indirectly try to make me feel guilty.

your trick will work

but its gonna

increase my disappointment from you.

you should grow from experience

instead of dwelling on the wound

and not move on.

because its you who suffer,

noone else.

not your family.

not your close friends.

not even the person you thought you love deeply.

respect people's decision.

everyone decides on something

for a reason.

dont presume its always negative.

sometimes,

its for your own good.

"chang tong bu ru duan tong"

if the process of pain is long-term,

why not end it short?

apparently,

you wont listen

nor care about wad i say

because

you are stubborn.

you just want the attention from anyone

when youre down.

but when youre alright?

new friends starts coming in

and old friends soon becomes .. who?

and im sorry.

i may be your friend

but i am not one

who will still side you

even if the facts are

all turned on you.

trust me,

you dont need

a friend

who is constantly

telling white lie

just to make you happy,

gives you wad you want to hear,

pretend you are correct even if youre not.

keeps the truth from you.

dont even think about telling tales about me

when i dont go your way.

bad move.

dont understand why i would get irritated

when you talked to me.

weird weird.

want sip to over.

cant wait

i used to admire you.

pretty rich smart.

but not anymore.

your heart .

betrayed every good traits of yours.

now i understand,

personality weighs the most.

appearance is just the bait

for attracting people.

personality decides

whether the person will leave or stay.

love or dislike you.

what i dont understand is

why would you tell tales about me

to people around me.

i dont see what it has to benefit you.

besides,

its all old rumours

you have just picked up

and recharged it to new people.

people changed.

i can proudly tell you

joycelyn has changed.

do you even treat me as a friend?

or merely

some middle-man

to gain your goals/motives/wadsoever.

alright,

it doesnt matter anymore.

let the irritation wear off.

and knows that

people loves me

more than they loves you.

over.

bye world.

loves,

joycelyn`

sweet weekend

2009-07-13T10:17:00.002+08:00

weekends are many thumbs up!

supper on friday night.

was in kokyong's car

when i realised

woah.

im the not-so-rich kid.

lol!

they stay in private houses.

had more than 2 cars.

fewstories high.

me?

hdb.

one car.

one floor.

but i dont feel inferior =)

nothing is fair in this world.

saying goes:

you have something

i dont have

and

i have something

you might not have too

=))

birthday surprise was WOAH.

i had to keep talking to distract him.

asking questions like

tallest building in singapore is?

is swisshotel or that bank building taller?

why is it so cloudy over there?

have the fireworks finished?

i didnt know fireworks could explode in rain?

you know, upcoming hdb flat is 100+ stories high.

( my mind was; ohdear, when they coming? quick think think)

i had to make frankie face away from the mac door.

it was long and .. kan chiong feeling.

hahaa.

then yea!

"happy birthday" song came

and he turned

tada!

trick

surprise

SUCCEEDEDDDDD =P

he was touched.

hehe.

we headed in.

slice cake.

( mango cheesecake was replaced by mango mooose* hahahaha)

then present.

he jumped

with the small boy expression

and body language.

it makes me smile secretly.

hahaa.

forfeits came in.

he was so daring and just do it!

it was funny.

especially

the scare ppl and run away like mad guy.

HAHAAA.

we then head to gv.tamp for movie.

ice age!

we kept laughing.

it was GOOD.

evenly spread out of laughter.

=))

back home,

before he fell asleep in my arms.

he told me,

this was one of the best birthday he ever had.

kissed his forehead and

sweet dreams =)

( i felt like a mummy holding my boy hahhaa)

made him breakfast.

first time.

hahaa.

sausages.

ham ham ham

cheese

toasted bread

star-shaped egg.

half omelette.

baked beans( totally forgot he hates beans-.- )

we left house in evening

to change his shoe size.

he head off for family dinner

me?

I WATCHED MOVIE at lido ALONE.

lol

title-obsessed.

it was not bad.

i teared.

i wanted to kick that woman's face.

and dope beyonce.

hahahaa.

met frankie afterwards again.

and his mum said to frank that .

he and i are gonna get married,

she and i should build our relationship

to avoid awkward moments in future.

thank you for you all

who made a big difference in frankie's bday life =D

appreciated lots many tons!

weeeee.

monday,

back in lab.

yes.

boring same old life

lookup sia career page.

lookup sim criteria page.

joyce planning future.

amazing.

never thought i wanted to plan.

life changes.

http://www.asiaone.com/specials/babies_contest/photogallery_tooth.html

please help vote for my baby cousin.

hahaaa.

16th row, first picture.

called darrence tan.

den click next at the bottom to vote for others too.

thank you very much!

im thinking wad to have for lunch

back later.

oh and

"all the little imperfections makes you a perfect person for me"

from frankie to.

awwwww

sweet boyfriend.

hehe

bye world,

loves,

joycelyn`

bored

2009-07-08T10:25:00.002+08:00

why does time pass so slowly today?

its only 10.30am.

ive been in lab since 845am.

boring boring boring.

flipping pictures.

hoping day pass quickly.

modern tonight.

frankie hardly recieve present

nor celebrate with his friends

on his birthday.

it was only my family and me

for the past few years that i know him.

one and only present - me.

thought of making it a friends year for him

that it'll catch him offguard,surprised and happier.

im really thankful for those who agreed

without hesitation.

frankie and i really appreciate your thoughts.

its really okay if

people preferred not to share

as i understand its taxing on everyone

to fork bout 10bucks at one go.

i would rather pay myself

than make everyone unhappy forking out their money.

but then again, i wanted to share the gift with friends for him.

blame it on me,

it was a bad idea to start off having to plan all these stuffs.

i should have just stick to the plain old only joyce and family

every single year.

i just want frankie to be happy

but i guess money is a very sensitive issue to touch on for everyone.

i believe in karma

and

treating people the way you wanted to be treated in the end.

jim bean finals.

i felt my energy wasnt as good as the heats.

is it because the atmosphere was more tense?

quieter?

weird?

i have no idea

but i felt weird when i started dancing

the first part.

like something was amiss

diss that feeling and continue dancing.

i didnt felt anything when the results was out.

because i knew

it couldn be us

yea, i know.

wad the hell am i thinking.

i pinned my own crew down with my negative thoughts.

damn.

why do we always get screwed up in finals.

for suntec.

now jim beam.

wad is the problem

and

what is the solution.

15mins have passed.

damn.

can the time just move slightly faster.

im rotting in lab

like really rotting

my skin are peeling off -.-

small gestures from friends

made my day =)

you wont realise

your actions/words

meant something to me.

bye world.

loves,

joycelyn`

simple

2009-07-02T17:21:00.002+08:00

the weather is cold
im freezing in lab
slept from 930am-120pm.
=))
lab doesnt gives me inspiration.
it makes me sleepy and lazy.
i prefer to be outdoor.
somewhat,
i regret staying in lab
cause proj sucks
i rather be out doing something
.
tmr is competition.
i am just going to enjoy myself.
stamina- go joyce
go revogue!
go epic
go sub
=D
.
what should i get for your birthday?
hmmmph.
.
i want another holdiay again
hahaa
.
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

d a y s

2009-06-30T14:24:00.004+08:00

how a child is being brought up in his/her family
is really important.
it really shapes you to who you are today.
take me for short instance.
my home.
is always noisy.
the only time its quiet =noone's home.
talking comes naturally in us.
its hard for us not to speak of certain problems.
open-minded.
we can talk about anything if we want to.
we throw our temper
but we still love each other.
whenever my dad or mum fetch me out,
i will kiss their cheeks goodbye.
whenever my sisters are in the car,
i will kiss their cheeks goodbye.
thats why i have no prob
kissing my friends' cheeks
comfortably
although some may feel uneasy ( im not les. haha )
i just feel love when im able to hug someone.
when someone is asleep at home,
the rest of us will still continue speaking aloud
or may even bicker over stuffs.
it doesnt really affects my sleeping
and
which also have resulted me
preferring to have people around me
when i sleep
and will be there when i wake up.
that i know im safe and secure within their touch.
i can sleep out of home easily with the noise and all too.
i cant survive alone on a island.
i need to have people around me
because my family are always around me.
and i need to share
i cant bottle up= leading to depression.
many more.
.
opposite of mine;
frankie was brought up in a more
quiet family.
when one is asleep,
the rest will keep quiet.
and able to be independent.
etc
when he's asleep,
i will unknowingly call him up
and he'll feel irritated
because
of our different backgrounds
lol.
.
some ppl have better expectations.
some ppl express anger by violence.
some ppl lead to depression.
this that
that this
=)
world is amazing.
.
time passed real slow today.
and
i passed my final =)
sweet.
.
i dont know why im changing.
because everything is changing
thats why im changing?
doesnt make any sense.
dont push me too hard.
i have feelings
and i can feel my ticking bomb inside
exploding anytime.
scary.
.

busy busy busy year.
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

get well soon

2009-06-29T16:28:00.005+08:00

chin sam kat joyce iris joey.

REVOGUE!

picture speaks alot

lazy to upload more.

my blog has suddenly becomes dull

boring

picture-less.

where did my bright side went to?

anyway

im not feeling well.

weird

did i overwork my body?

it feels that way.

i felt lost in countless ways.

ive tried writing it down

but it doesnt works.

nothing is pourin out.

i had nightmare* again.

i always do.

and im so used to it.

but this one shocked me up.

pressed frank's number

and called him.

assuring myself

he's okay,

its only a bad dream.

recently

been irritated easily.

can tell from

my face

my tone

my body language

i twitched abit

when someone poked/tapped my shoulder.

i glared

when someone bump into me.

i complained

about every single thing

including the floors.

how stupid can i get.

i was just unhappy.

and i dont know why.

or i do know why

just that my mind is not clear yet

tbg was =)))

coolmint,

fierce

strong

impactful

although it hurts

when i heard of how they trained to time watch

full out every single rehearsals.

this that

that this

woah.

different culture from singapore.

totally.

wco was =))) too

dominique* was =)))

same goes to oversea crew too

phillipines all star

WOAH!

alright alright

=))

joycelyn,

get a grip of yourself.

sip is going to finish in 3 months time.

youre gonna graduate next yr.

yes.

pull through!

bye world,

loves,

joycelyn`

simple

2009-06-28T02:27:00.002+08:00

slept till 4pm.
head out to meet my sec friends.
jingwen amelyn melise
kok yong woh
and ronald.
=)
jillian was working.
yimchew was quarantined.
we had dinner at sushi tei
yumyum.
had 2 plates of salmon sushi
half bowl of ramen.
after on.
melise left to meet mum.
we head to mount faber
up and down.
we head to ice cream chef
had honeydew with loackers.
head to katong.
ate red bean ice cream.
head to marina jetty.
had cheeseballs
head to geylang
had beancurd
you tiao
egg tart.
wanted to have hao gao
but drivers were tired
LOL
so we head home!
im still craving for food =P
LOVE FOOD!
especially when my appetite comes
weeeeeeeeeee!
next time outing again!
.
love dancing to revogue's
stupid shit and beat it choreo.
because this time,
everyone is involved.
different steps are from different us.
when we dance,
it feels
yeaa, this is our combined love choreo!
lol =D
im happy we made it through!
aweesome!
.
faith keeps the love going ; by frankie.
bye world,
loves joyceyn`

DANCE

2009-06-27T03:36:00.002+08:00

YEAAAA
WE MADE IT THROUGH THE HEATS!
WE'VE GOT IN TO FINALS
WITH OTHER 7 TEAMS!
CONGRATS
epic crew
shut up boys
!
and the rest =))
weeeee!
.
and
MJ left this world =(
he's a legend.
we will remember him for life!
king of pop!
=D
continue dancing over there!
=)
we danced to your song too.
beat it.
awesome!
=)))
thank you, MJ!
.
im dead tired.
nights everyone!
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

thoughts

2009-06-25T15:57:00.004+08:00

i dragged myself out of bed to sch.
clocked in.
reached lab
realised lappy internet down.
went to aunt hse to get cousin's vest.
went tm/cs/t1 to shop.
back in lab.
am feeling really tired.
noises of lab
i cant stand it.
had to pluck in my ipod
to find peace.
some people voices just irritates me
argh.
or im just plainly
irritated now.
-
i am not prepared for tmr.
i kept forgetting steps formations
let alone being able to full-out.
im hell scared!
-
sometimes i wonder,
why does someone
not as beautiful smart sexy hot than others
but always manage to settle down faster?
is it because.
they dont have expectation of their other half?
they just take wadever guy who loves them?
or wad?
.
i always thought love is simple.
as long you have twiny tickling feeling towards opposite,
just go ahead.
that tickling feeling
got frank and me together back 3yrs 9mths ago,
over one phone call at night when he confessed to me
and i returned back.
( hahhaa =DD )
then,
we decided to take our friendship to next level
without thinking twice
without doubting the other half
without playing the "try hard to get" stuffs
without putting up a different image
without the thought of having him to wait for me to say yes.
without going through all the tough process to be together.
without worrying there will be another guy better than frankie for me.
the chasing part was short.
he was never pushy nor openly-flirty.
he was one simple cute guy ( haha! )
who made an effort to send a goodnight msg
at least twice a week
it was only until
once,
he didnt know i was holidaying.
he sent millions* of msges
worrying of my safety
because i did not reply.
then on,
we started msging.
den ta da ~
.
we spent months honeymooning*
we get to know each other slowly.
everything was sweet and cool.
.
then you hit the next stage.
where we ( girls )
starts thinking.
like
wad if he cheats on me
wad if im not as pretty as other girls
wad if he found someone else
wad if
wad if
if if if
sums up
to me,
being a total insecure sensitive possesive girlfriend
leading on to countless arguements.
we were still young.
only 15-16yrs old.
noone taught us how to solve an arguement
noone said relationship has sour or bitter times
we did not know how to manage our love.
.
our differences
our goals
our giving of love
our recieving of love
our expectations of "you should know me"
my jealously
my sensitivity
his insensitivity
love is not simple at all
.
then you hit the "lets take a break" stage.
it was painful devastating hatred and all.
it was never easy.
you know
that you both are still in love
but
somehow
the accumulations keeps building up
covering all the sweet old times.
love hidden behind your hatred.
even when we said
we're okay
but deep inside
hell no.
until it burst unexpectedly one day.
.
fate?
destiny?
our paths crossed again.
the beginning was rough.
my possesiveness literally killed his freedom.
friends telling me to let him go
if not i'll drive him to the wall.
it was not easy.
nothing is easy.
it takes time.
much much way longer time for me
to believe him
to trust him
to make things work.
thankfully,
frank had the patience with me =)
efforts paid off.
our love is stronger
although we still bicker over tiny matters
but
i rather
we'll be arguing
than having us to seperate again
=)
so people,
dont doubt yourself
dont doubt your partner
noone is perfect
the right person could be standing right in front of you
all along
just that you could be blinded
by your expectations
or believing there're
always better ones behind.
you never know
if there will be another one behind =)
.
love has experience.
even if it fails,
do not regret
because you made an effort to love someone
and have someone love you back =)
they say love waits.
wad if it doesnt wait
and your turn is over?
=)
.
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`

down

2009-06-25T01:16:00.002+08:00

im feeling alittle down now.
and
i dont know why
im not arguing with anyone
im not thinking negatively
i was happily chit chatting with girls on train
.
this is weird.
am i undergoing some
hormones changes right now?
cause i am so not feeling too good.
.
i dont like sch.
Zzz
i want it over
like
over.
and
i dont like
having to tell ppl
yeaup,
planning to further study
when
studies is end of my list.
i know its important
but.
nvm.
.
why do i feel so easily giddy nowadays?
its bad.
i turn two rounds,
i feel like vomiting
and it will last for hours
which is bad
raaah
.
I DONT WANT TO GO SCH TMR!
=(
.
bye world,
loves joycelyn`

summary. lol

2009-06-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

hello world earth people =)
im down with flu and sore throat.
over-heaty + weird-weather = unhealthy.
been sleeping as much as i can
been drinking as much as i can
need to get well
so i can enjoy my last weekend of holiday!
=))
.
spent 20bucks last sat
to rebel with girls
that is so gonna be my last time going to club
on saturday.
wednesday is free
LOL!
but i enjoyed myself that night
with them though i dont drink
because i suck at drinking
hahaha!
.
have you ever get irritated with
your friend
although you still love them as much as other friends?
.
have you ever realise
you can accept all your friends' bad points
but there's always one which will just irritate you
and you cant figure out why?
.
have you said
you miss/love your friends
today?
because if you dont,
you might just miss the chance to do so next time.
.
when im alone,
i think alot
rubbish
logical
nonsence
practical
bla bla bla
stuffs
and i question myself.
weird -.-
.
skipped modern today
needed a rest
my body is weaking.
my limps refused to do out the movement.
lazy joyce
.
i dont want to start sip next week again.
i dread it
i dread our project
i dread everything
i want to run away
but i cant
-.-
i hate dealing with programs
i hate it
but i still have to face it
thats life, isnt it?
=)
.
i know
some may wonder why
joyce's msg/mails/blogs
are always aligned to the left side.
its not about being unique.
i have never thought of that before.
i just find myself
feeling more pleasant writing/reading it this way
instead of clumping words to paragraphical way.
yup, thats my reason.
heh =P
.
i know its inevitable* for dancers to dress this way
which people feels its too much of a poser
or we just stands out in our
different sense of dressing from others.
im alright with people saying
dancers are posers
but i am definitely not okay
with people hurling vulgarities,
using violence on dancers
just because
" i dont like people who dance
or people who sides with dancers"
total crap!
it can only make me conclude
that you simply cant dance
and
you are jealous of others who are
able to dance =)
.
people who knows joycelyn
knows that
she isn't one girl who
goes on food-diet
even though the fats
on her thighs butt tummy scares her.
i have never ever said
" i am going on a diet"
i love food =)
i know im skinny
but why assume,
im skinny because im on diet.
repeated countless times,
"i dont go on diet"
please look at me when i eat
lol
i dont give a damn about the calories in the food
i just eat.
i am born with this skinny-boney skeleton
just appreciate
at least i have boobs,
not totally flat, please.
it still does hurts me
although ive gotten over that stage many times,
its not like i want this myself.
you arent perfect
and
you cant change my appearance either
so please
just shut up about my body,
it makes me less irritated
and alot happier =)
.
=)))
i have cravings for food again
but i dont know what to eat
just brewed hot honey lemon.
yumyum =)
what should i have next?
.
bye world.
loves, joycelyn`

VENTING BLUNT ANGRY THOUGHTS

2009-06-01T00:09:00.003+08:00

okay.
my mind could be not in the right path
so im just gonna rattle wadever it comes into my brain
without thinking
im lazy to think through
and if i didnt mention your name
please please dont assume im talking about you.
i will tell you if its you.

here it goes.
AHLEE'S ZARA VEST $78.
ive msged you
ive called you
ive emailed you
ive wrote your wall
ive wrote my wall
ive told our common-friends
ive told your surronding friends
YET NOT A SINGLE REPLY.
for my sake,
that vest was lent to you
because WE TRUSTED YOU.
i trusted you
when you said
youre gonna wash it and return to me asap.
since recital08 till now,
not a single reply wadever.
you dont feel a tiny piny hurt
because it is not your stuffs to begin with.
ive held my patience for you since long.
its not that i have grudges against you
but i just felt
the least you can do is let me know.
im pretty sure
youve seen/read my mails/msg/missedcalls.
you can choose to ignore it
but wearing it on your graduation day.
like hello?
dont you feel weird?
wearing someone else clothes
and pretend its yours
when we were all chasing you
for so long?
if you still dont get it,
i am really gonna spell out your name HUGE HUGE HUGE!
.
oh and i rmmbr my nike long pants as well.
-
when someone in a relationship
says they wouldn be in their own world
are BULLSHIT.
we will sub-consiously lean towards that way.
you dont need me to type out examples
because we know why.
its not wrong to spend extra thousand more times together
but
at least
DONT GO MIA.
DONT IGNORE YOUR FRIENDS.
dont come crying to us
if you ever gonna go separate ways with your partner.
friends are equally important as your partner.
-
and i dont see why
one must be ashamed to talk to a friend
after a long period of time
of not contacting each other?
the problem lies with yourself.
not anyone else
so stop thinking negatively
-
back then, i had problems with pleasing big group of friends.
one would be unhappy
with me having so many friends.
that they are not as important as another.
that my time was not equally spend with individuals.
this that that this.
so i changed
because i cared what they were thinking
because they mean something to me.
my big group of friends went to smaller group of friends.
i was happier
because i didnt have to make sure everyone was okay with this that
.
things are not so simple afterall.
when i organise/plan outings,
i will ask as a whole because its just my way.
does anyone rmmbr this?
or do they choose to rmmbr as our humans nature are
that
all the bad one like seperate cliques and cliques
sometimes, its best to close one eye and ignore the bad feeling.
it makes me feels lighter.
but everyone is different
.
i had to admit
it was a rough patch at first
when i was bombarded with all these bad feelings.
i got jealous insecure wary of this and that
but i learn to overcome it.
recognize that stupid bad feeling.
i learn to have faith in our friendship.
have mutual understanding between us.
it has to work both ways too.
.
i dont know if my theory works this way.
Eg:
youre in tpde as a club
then you stick with your batch of people
then it goes down to girls
then it goes down to your own clique
then it goes down smaller
then it goes down to just you and one person.
who knows, it goes down to you alone in this world.
.
when you want to share with someone,
that someone is usually the person youre most comfortable with.
and somethings
you share with different friends of yours.
it is perfectly normal.
and noone can blame you for your reasons of doing so.
respect your friends choice of friends
as much as you want them to respect your surrounding friends.
the support we are suppose to give to one another
is very essential to make it work.
and
never ever let the evil spirit in you
make you do things to get back at another person.
it does noone good
but leaves you evil-ly satisfied with yourself.
.
last of all
i want to thank you
to all my friends
who understands me
who trust me
who have faith in our friendship even if we dont talk every single day/month.
who doesnt make me choose btw you or her/him
thank you
appreciate it manymany =)
let us all be happy
life is really short
dont waste time on bad feelings.
.
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`

=)

2009-05-31T04:08:00.002+08:00

why life has to be complicated?
"yi ren ran yi bu, ren shen jiu hui gen kai xin"
all it takes is for
each of us to take a step back(give in), we will be much happier in life.
political matters can drive a person to suicide.
love can turn into hatred within a second.
best friends can become enemies over a small matter.
.
i dont want to think so much
it makes my life alot more complex.
i really have nothing to hide
i dont even think so deep into a situation.
what is going on?
-
it is not healthy to keep our thoughts inside our heart
but for some minor things,
its best to just handle the thoughts
and get over it.
dont dig up the past
it does noone good.
no one.
for relationship
for friends
for family
for work
wadever situation
digging up the past is never a good way
of solving problems.
-
im hungry now
and its affecting what i want to write.
lol
.
have a open heart and mind - to be happy.
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

CRAZY WORLD

2009-05-29T16:12:00.002+08:00

swine alert in singapore.
please wash our hands after peeing/shitting in toilet.
wash with soap.
because if you just plainly wash your hands with water,
its as good as not washing your hands
as the germs still lingers on your hands
so WASH WITH SOAP TO KILL GERMS!
now and then,
take your time to head to toilet and WASH HANDS.
lol.
it sounds ma fan
but for our health safety purposes =))
and please cough and sneeze with your hands covered ( with tissue )
and do not spit on the floor.
if you choose to ignore the above ......precaution.
good luck to you and your health
and how selfish you are to spread to others.
=))
.
weather has been really bad
one moment, it was all hot and sweaty
next moment, it was all cold and shivering.
last monday, the sky was already blue when it was only
like 6pm?
and the sun set down like 7pm.
woah
i rmmbr years ago 730pm= sun still shining brightly in sky.
.
last night
after watching night museum 2.
on bus 17
NEVER SMILE TO STRANGERS
WEIRD STRANGERS-.-
he was just a secondary kid
he said hi to us
so we smiled back
BANG!
he kept looking back at us non-stop.
SERIOUSLY mean
NON-STOP.
god.
i looked away.
frank felt really uneasy
so we head lower deck to sit
BANG!
he followed us-.-
anyway, he got on the bus at block 201 tampines area.
yup
so we started thinking of strategy.
like many
and having our defensive mode ON.
hahaa
my stop was coming
but we dare not get down
fearing he will follow us
because judging from the way he looks and smiles at us
tells us 100% confirm stalker.
we decided to loop
because noone will be silly enough
to take a loop bus back.
he stared at us long when the bus reached interchange.
we acted that we were gonna dropped off too
yeaayeaaa
he dropped off
RELIEF!
wad a ... experience.
it freaks me out.
i dont like that feeling at all..
not at all.
when we were walking home,
i kept having that illusion
that guy is following us
and i kept turning back to double-check.
-.-
.
the world is so unsafe because
of all these weird people.
last week,
frank and i met a indian guy
who begged us for money to take bus.
i stared at him
as though i wanted to kill him
it works.
lol
it scared him
so he divert his talking to frank.
hahaaa
.
my groupmate told me
he was on the bus
and a gay touched his thigh
he almost beat him up
but his friends stopped him
.

INSECURE WORLD.
.
im going back to cut my acrylic plastic board.
it sucks
it cut my finger
-.-
.
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

thinkable.

2009-05-25T17:06:00.003+08:00

hello.
my front tooth is hurting
and i dont know why
ive been brushing teeth at night and daytime
hmmm
.
ko night
was dope
especially POPPING!
aweesome ah!
watch it live to feel the impact
hehe
though i would like to spilt half
to watch boty too
frank was there to catch it
=))
weeee
-
ive spend the entire 24may09 with you
thank you frankie =DD
.
ima person
who wont bear grudges
so dont worry if youve felt that youve offended me k..
if i dont like you,
i will stay away from you.
but im not, so dont think yea
=)
.
i love my friends as friends
but when it comes to project dance work,
my style is different from
their working style.
thats why i believe if its better
to avoid den make our friendship sour,
i would avoid.
its not that i dont like you
but i just hope you'll understand why i do this way.
and
im trying my best to tell people what i feel/think
by not hurting them
if it hurts, im really sorry.
i didnt mean to hurt you
im just not good at putting my words across.
.
everyone has different goals in forming a crew to competition.
whats mine now is simple.
i just want us to perform together
because
for what we know,
we will be going separate ways next year
chances of us joining back is lesser.
and i believe
we can overcome our disagreements along the way peacefully.
=))
.
im clocking out.
weeee
bye world
loves
joycelyn`

D A M N - I T - O N - M E

2009-05-23T00:37:00.006+08:00

is it a bad sign that im asking for more?
i always thought that i am contented with just a simple lifestyle.
un-noticely,
ive been craving for more.
from daytime together
to night time together
to wanting stayover nights
to asking for holidays
to talk about marriage.
of course it will scare the hell out of a guy/man.
especially those who are in theirs tens/early twenties.
i dont deny its way too young to move on
to a whole new experience/path in life.
what i fear is time.
i know
"when it comes, it comes"
perharps im just being too stubborn with what i want.
i wont force to go into marriage
because we cant afford to have one
and like what youve said.
we are not mature enough to handle.
i do understand.
im okay with that
really.
i didnt mentioned anything to you after that day.
i just keep it to myself
.
i just cant deny that
i really want more time with you?
like more private time together
rather than dance school home dance school home.
i dont see you everyday since way back.
.
because of these,
it makes me wants to stop craving for anything else.
like
just stick to this way
this lifestyle
this same routine lifestyle.
dont ask for more
dont crave for more
dont even think about having more.
just stay this way.
im not sick of being with you
i love being with you.
yeaup.
i know
ive asked too much.
always.
i cant stop being greedy
and throwing my princess-sy temper
when i dont get what i want
i need a change
i want out of singapore
alone.
.
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

s-p-e-e-c-h-l-e-s-s

2009-05-19T23:57:00.002+08:00

mixed feelings.
irritated with today.
i dont like today
and
i hope tmr will be a better day
.
took MC.
yeaa
no sch for both days
sweeet
.
the doctor recognised me
hahaha
=)
so qiao
.
im not in mood to talk about anything now.
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

be happy

2009-05-14T10:10:00.005+08:00

say hello to booger =)
booger says hi to world =)
lol.

=)

do

this is how i looked like in cctv.

back-view

lol

our pillows in lab =)

green is not mine.

hahaa

skies.

moreclouds

the pattern - unique =D

sunset.

our ideal future home.

by the beach.

this is an example of my major project.

hahaa.

except it should says

POLICE STOP!

programming is not easy.

i am not meant to be an engineer.

my favourite panty-purseee =P

ive been feeling weird.
i have no idea why.
i hope it doesnt affect my entire mood for the day.
im having girls outing tonight
and i dont wanna missed it again.
i feel bad having such a weak health.
my flu has not one bit getting anywhere better.
ive been flu-ing for weeks
combined with morning flu
combined with seasonal flu
makes things worse.
why is my nose so sensitive.
why am i so sensitive.
Zzzz.
( not H1N1; dont worry =) )
.
this is the second time im late for sip.
i did not wake up late
i did not oversleep
i woke up at 710am.
i left house at 805am.
i waited for the bus at interchange at 810-815am.
and the bus came at 842am.
i clocked in 9.01am
i was not spared for that one minute.
i stay so near to school.
this is so fustrating*
the first time im late was
also the bus came late
my mum fetched me to sch at 845am
when the bus did not arrive.
it was raining super heavilly.
traffic jam at school gate.
tada~
was late for 20mins.
great
i dread waking up so early for sch.
hmmm
maybe i should write something to SBS
we need them to ferry more busses for us.
=)
.
shall update more later.
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`
be happy =)

2009-05-12T09:36:00.000+08:00

You are a NEGOTIATOR / explorer

You are a big thinker. You easily take the large, long view of almost any topic. You are comfortable juggling myriad facts. You tend to synthesize material easily and to think in webs of factors, not straight lines. You are imaginative and enjoy theorizing.

You are also socially savvy. You are good at both talking and listening. And you generally read people's faces, body postures and tone of voice accurately, so you tend to intuitively understand what people want and need.

You are also highly compassionate. You care deeply about others. So you sometimes make personal sacrifices to be a supportive friend or colleague. And you like to work to improve the world.

You enjoy new ideas and novel experiences. You are flexible, affable and open to adventure. And you admire impulsive, spontaneous people, despite your tendency to plan ahead.

You dislike conflict. You seek "win-win" solutions. And with your skill as a negotiator, you adeptly bring peace to the chaotic world around you. You are a warm, insightful and often exciting companion

=)
bye world
loves.

2009-05-11T09:12:00.003+08:00

"Running
To dream that you are running away from someone, indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears. "

fears.

i know what it means now.

"Dinosaur
To see a dinosaur in your dream, symbolizes an outdated attitude. You may need to discard your old ways of thinking and habits.

To dream that you are being chased by a dinosaur, indicates your fears of no longer being needed or useful. Alternatively, being chased by a dinosaur, may reflect old issues that are still coming back to haunt you. "

"Vampire
To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to it. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic for someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship."

-
had cramps on fri night,
just before clocking out.
how great.
missed my girls outing.
rushed home
slept all the way till next morning.
woke up at 8am.
family day =))
headache by night time
missed another girls outing.
-.-
slept early again till next noon.
=)

-
okay.
im bored and sleepy in lab now.
bye world
loves

argh

2009-05-08T14:18:00.002+08:00

after typing out the results for auditions,
took a walk down to noticeboard.
reactions from
"ohmygod!!"
sigh and walked away
" why must pay money?"
" so expensive!"
" why must pay at the start, wad if i dont like halfway and quit, you all swallow my money?"
" actually quite cheap ah"
" im joining other cca's man"
"studiowu unlimited only 120bucks"
"eh, my friend not in. haha"
many more.
[ ps: might not be the exact words they used ]
.
got me thinking.
there are many more people
who are willing to pay
to take up dance.
why is people not appreciating
what they have?
what about the others who really wanted so badly to get thru?
selfish.
.
im quite sad about it.
-
i didnt complain one bit
when i was asked to pay back then.
i just wanted to dance.
thats all.
and i know
i cant force
everyone to have the same mindset as me
like
dance.
just dance.
each and every single one
have the right for their own opinion
towards dance.
for me,
i suck at freestyling
but i dont stop people from freestyling.
brainwashing them that choreo is better.
bla bla bla.
everyone is good in their own dance ways.
yeaa.
( i have too many ... questions in me right now )
i shouldn be affected.
hmmm.
alright.
-
waiting for my lunch-packet from cy.
cy went to have lunch with her bf.
hmmm
all alone in lab
playing games.
stoning
thinking about life
thinking of studio usage.
thinking of proposal.
thinking of my proper grammer vocab structure ENGLISH.
i suck at english.
and i never make an effort to improve it.
im lazy <- thats what frank always tellls me.
hahaha
-
gonna hang out
with sam kat chin later.
weeee
girls outing!!
weeee
yes sam,
we should have this
gathering once a week
or something.
friendship are easy to comeby*
but hard to maintain/holdon.
treasure each one.
though its hard
because most people dont know how to.
.
CONGRATSSS
to top 8 of ko night.
sweeet =D
it was eye-opening.
ah joyce..
you should be up there with kat
freestyling.
*stop dreaming*
lol
-
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`
( i know i can be such a bitch at times; argh )

2009-05-05T12:22:00.003+08:00

i dont like people
changing my stuffs without
asking my permission.
im okay with anything
but that doesn mean
im here to evolve around your fingers.
get it straight.
.

...

2009-05-04T14:39:00.002+08:00

humans are intelligent
but fragile
against illness
nature disasters
animal attacks
insects bite
slip and fall and die
food posioning
.
im sick for couple days.
im alright with myself wearing mask
in clinic.
but i DISLIKE the way
people eyed/stared at you
like you have some terminal diseasessss.
its so funny
when they are sick too
and we all are sick people
in this small clinic
waiting for the same doctor to treat us
with same medicine.
-.-
i just dont understand.
and that auntie was certainly kind enough
to ask me to get away from their "SICK-FREE" area
and register at the other corner of the clinic
for FLU/FEVER/COUGH/SORETHROAT area.
.
okay
im going bed to rest.
goodnight people =)
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`

2009-04-30T09:37:00.002+08:00

okay
i dont know what i want to type.
lol.
thats weird.
cause usually i'll have things to say.
maybe later.
.
OHHH.
got already.
lets enjoy the sun while we can
before daylight is taken away from us.
lets appreciate the fact
that we're still standing on the land
instead of drowning in the water.
let us be realistic in life.
if its time for you to go,
you have to go
dont cheat fate
dont cheat death.
a entire whole new life
is awaiting for us =)
.
bye world
loves joycelyn`

=)

2009-04-28T15:09:00.002+08:00

been staring at the same excel page.
hiphop
modern
hip hop
modern
hip hop
modern.
people changing decisions.
people backing out
people coming in
changing changing.
.
the rainy weather
is making my eyelid heavier.
but i cant sleep peacefully.
those few tiny loads on me
is making me uneasy.
.
okay
i need to get inspired again
for tonight class.
come on joyce.
.
bye world,
loves, joycelyn`

2009-04-27T15:33:00.002+08:00

i dont know it it can be watched.

after mg battle,

raiyu and jeremy are AWESOME FREESTYLERS

lol

then on this mrt ride home,

one uncle.

lie across the bench comfortably.

have that childish urge to ask him to put his legs down

bla bla blaa

lol

but i didnt.

why.

i dont know

hahaa.

random note.

i think this girl is weird.

she has my sec sch friend's a/c

but she's acting all lesbiannie

asking to be friends with me

wants to see me over the cam

-.-

and

one girl came up to me

acting all doodleeely close to me

as if i'd knew her way back.

people are so weird.

perharps im not like the usual joyce

that will try not to make things awkward for us.

if i dont know you,

sorry

i cant be nice anymore.

not all the times.

not to mention people with crazy intentions

its so tiring to beware of them

its not like they have those intentions

written all over their faces,

only that would it be much easier to spot.

bye world.

loves,

joycelyn`

2009-04-24T12:00:00.004+08:00

im bored.
think positive.
only through hard times
will a person grow to be stronger.
hold on
hold on.
.
do you really understand me?
or its just words to assure me.
somehow i felt things arent so simple.
.

.

2009-04-23T17:09:00.003+08:00

this is my fourth day in this lab at engine school
my workplace-.-
been watchiing video
listening to songs
sleeping
eating
and the cycle goes again.
now i know why
the tmr project never comes.
HAHAHAA.
.
....
maturity
immaturity
where do i fit in?
.
assumption
judging
have i been doing that?
.
underhand motives
good intention
who has what beneath their eyes?
.
positional power
friendship love
which is realistic?
.
blunt
bitch
which shapes a better person?
.
reassurance
is there a limit to it?
.
be one person to everyone.
who is the one person in me?
i dont know.
be myself
find myself
who am i?
am i being comfortable?
.
i miss my friends.
..
finally
i KNOW HOW TO USE AN IPOD.
-.-
my songs have been disappearing like zilliiooonnn times.
now.
i just need more songs to flood it =))
.
okay
im waiting to clock out.
12 more mins!
=DDDDDDD
WEWWWEEEEEEEEWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
bye world
loves,
joycelyn`

weeee

2009-04-16T00:26:00.002+08:00

hello world.
i enjoyed my day.
i had great time wearing that green walkman series
in/on my ears.
hahahaa.
wirelessss mp3.
dopedope.
zapping is dopedope.
lol.
look out for it =)))
and dancing in the bus
is dopedope too.
LOL.
.
on impulsive decision.
im flying to hongkong in 8hours time.
hahahaa.
i still cant contact frankie.
let fate decides for us
=))
if any of you happen to see frankie online.
please let him know ive went to hk to look for him!!
hahahaa.
and i left a msg in his facebook!!
=))
thank you!!
.
alright
i need some rest!
sweeeeettttttttttttttt!!!!
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`
( i love travelling )

greeny

2009-04-14T01:56:00.002+08:00

"20
wow you are getting married very soon"

from facebook.
hahahhaaa.
=P
the funniest thing was.
just yesterday,
i told frankie
i want to get married
and have kids of our own.
he just looked at me
and said.
"NOT NOW."
" but i really want to get married; alright, i'll wait"
and continued our journey smiling.
hahahaaa.
and this quiz*
tells me 20 years old.
sweet sweet.
hahahaaa.
..
its been only one day-.-
i want one week to pass soon
yet i dont want school to start.
Zzzz
..
the world is in danger.
from solar storm
or solar radiation from the show
knowing.
its sooo true.
i mean; the extiinction.
scary shit.
my only life-wish
is to get married
happy family
simple =D
..
120bucks is a big big sum to me.
to whoever who didnt pay for their
concert tickets,
can you please please pay that 15bucks
to royston...
=(
..
waiting for you home.
bye world.
loves,
joycelyn`

..

2009-04-10T04:34:00.002+08:00

i will miss frankie dearly.
come home safe and sound
for i'll be home waiting for you
=))
loves,
joycelyn`
.
extremly important person
in my life.
the only reason
youre here
is because
you love me.
and that is enough said =)
i love you too.
mushy as it sounds.
see you soon!!

tpde concert

2009-04-05T13:03:00.004+08:00

WEEEEE.
its over!
and i woke up at 9am today
hahaaa
assured myself there's no trg
therefore falling back to sleep again.
=)
.
feedback.
some were good
some were bad.
but overall, it was a good productive show!!
YEAAAAEAAAA!!
.
thank you for those who cared for me yesterday.
sorry to make you all worried about me.
i guess people who experienced this before
would know that im not faking it at all.
* youre just jealous; thats all ; no harm =)
thank you again.
=))
.
had new haircut.
LOL
byy royston and raazmy.
sweeet =))
thanks guys!
though it was cut on impulsive move.
like hour before concert on friday.
hahahaaa =)
.
disappointed.
to know that
sometimes
one would go to the extreme end just to get what they want.
i dont like people with motives
trying to be close to another person
just to gain something.
but i know this is life
and almost everyone is selfish for themselves;
fighting for their life.
i can understand that
as long there's no backstabbing ( which is unavoidable )
have to learn to live with it.
.
stop telling me
you dont know what the hell you are doing.
my eyes dont lie.
stop claiming you dont mean to hurt me
with all those could have been avoided stuffs to me.
my heart feels it.
stop believing because i love you,
i ought to forgive you.
you dont even know what have you done
when are you going to wake up
and learn from what youve done over and over over over endlessly again.
when.
.

.
i dont have mood to go class today.
but i have to.
.
bye world.

pain

2009-04-02T00:23:00.002+08:00

consequences of not stretching before dance,
spraining of neck,
pulling of upper left back muscles,
old injury of lower right back muscles,
kneecap,
left feet.
therefore im not dancing for concert.
.
.
...
.
......
...
.
.
.
.........
.
.
.
....
............
...
......................................

...

.......
.
..
.
.
........................
HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!!!!
lol
i bet almost everyone forgets bout april fool day.
lol..
okay
im still performing for concert which is er friday.
and now its err.
lol.
but the spraining part is real
=((
aching
hurting
badly
i understand the tiredness of neck cast.
and
neck + head + hair
is essential for dancing ( applies to me )
LOL
but ouch =(
.
...
.
jiayou
bye world
hope those who came enjoyed the show =)))
.
....
streetjazz- make it happen!!!
=D
loves,
joycelyn`
and
FOREVER EVER EVER LOVE 43TH MONTH
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

tired

2009-03-31T01:41:00.002+08:00

feeling really exhausted breathless restless and changed.
.
batam trip was good.
eye-opening.
the part where the little girl didnt know
what is the toilet bowl for
and pee on the floor
makes me heartache.
.
body is worn out
and everybody is falling ill..
takecare everyone!!! =D
.
my hair is -.-
trim and keep the same length,
the hairdresser dont understand.
im so sad.
Zzz
i cant flick my hair.
.
okay
really tired.
off to bed.
tmr 930am trg
bye world,
loves,
joycelyn`

fast forward

2009-03-25T01:36:00.006+08:00

random pictures everywhere.

ennjoy =)

hahahaaa.

kat and raz looked so young back then =P

TPDE =D

my hair is forever messed up -.-

lol

check this out.

its my favourite colour- GREEEN.

favourite shirt- FITTING.

and favourite lover- FRANKIE

hahahahhaaa =D

he bought me this at osch garage sale.

so sweeettt =PP

left to right,

09; 05; 07;06

the year these photos were took.

hehe =P

because of passport picture, i had to clip my fringe up.

yuckyucky.

and thats my primary sch look =D

WEEEEEE.

sunday was spent with my best friend and boy friend;

BFFFFFSSS

LOL =D

indulging in good food makes a difference =DD

im excited for training,.

this year, my close friends wont be coming down because

they're busy or out of town =(

and very surprisingly, my classmates are coming down to watch =)

cheesssyy musical but it'll be dope.

i can see it

i can feel it

hehee

and there goes my back

LOL.

byebye!!!

bye world,

loves; joycelyn`

busy.

2009-03-14T03:06:00.004+08:00

been busy lately
health was not kind to me
because i didnt rest enough
and drink lots of plain water.
second time in my entire life.
i dont want a third time.
just go away; bacteria
i am not your type
dont look for me again
bye =)
.
dance tickets is out.
3rd or 4th april 2009.
730pm
15bucks
cinderella; fairy tale
let me know if youre interested
weeee
.
goodnight
long day ahead
bye world
loves,
joycelyn
.
sometimes we're blinded by our own feelings
that we kept pushing the blame anger jealously wadever negative
to someone else
without realising the root of the problem
is your ownself.

=)

2009-03-04T21:03:00.006+08:00

malaysia clouds.

heh

only green house spotted.

our wax.

heh.

50bucks.

our love is not cheap at all.

we said we're gonna place it in our first home together.

hahaha.

pink.

he likes being weird and funny.

he bought me and himself keychain

lol

he said it looks like him

so he got us that; to make me happy.

hahaa.

it was supposed to last 3weeks.

it was gone in 3days-.-

pathetic.

thank world i did it for only 2bucks each.

booger tried to run out of house because he knew we were leaving.

our saviour of day is adeline who woke up and hold him.

=))

=DD

cramp go away;please.

bye world,

loves joycelyn`

hate cramp

2009-03-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

.
i didnt have cramp until
frankie kept saying
yes you will have cramp
yes you will
i dont care
yes you will.
and here am i
down with this cramp.
-.-
when was the last time
you were here with me
when i had cramps.
i cant rmmbr
neither can you.
guess things changes along the way.
.
it was natural to stay beside your loved ones
when they're in pain etc
slowly
you realised you're no longer doing all those
small simple things anymore.
.
ah
stupid cramp
why 3rd march.
.
bye world.